The progress the first week or so had been slow. We managed to pick up the girl (Uni) but she wouldn't sit on our laps for very long, always trying to squirm away. The boy (Uno) was even worse. He wouldn't let anyone touch him. Maybe it had to do with giving him a bath the second day because he had poo all over him or that dad tried to "desensitize" him by prodding him with a leather belt. Uno hissed at everything.
Yesterday we had a breakthrough day with our hedgehogs. We were able to pick both of them up and put them into a play pen. They stayed there for a good 30 minutes before we picked up Uni who fell asleep on our tummies. It was a moment of bliss where we finally just rested with our pets. There was no more contention or fighting. It was such a great feeling to finally get a response from our pets whom we care for so dearly.
While Mich and I were chatting on the MTR we realized that this might be similar to how God relates to us. God desires so greatly to just be with us in eternal rest. He tries to get our attention with blessings of food and shelter and then lavishes upon us things we don't even need for our enjoyment. And like our hedgehogs we become enamored with those things instead of the one who gave them to us. We are distracted with sleep and sated with our food that we don't have time for our master. And when God comes and tries to spend time with us, we hiss and curl into our defenses hoping he'll leave us alone to our own devices.
I can't imagine what it'll be like when I have kids and experience "fatherhood" to a new depth. The pain of rejection from your own kids must be so much more vivid and the joys of returned affection so much more exuberant. Until then, I have just a glimpse of how deep God's love is for us, and how much I ought to return his affections.
